A letter of Condolences

My dear friend,
Thank you for your letter and my most sincere condolences for the loss of your friend.
All you say is very true and well, indeed.
As someone who’s tried it twice in the last year – and God only knows how the Hell I am still alive – well, what I wanted to say is that sometimes it’s just too much; and yes, someone could have tried harder; how could I do this to those who love me and I have responsibilities towards and all the rest but, in the end, it makes no difference because the truth is that, sometimes – please note that this is a daily struggle, often a few times a day too; a struggle with a life we don’t want to keep on living and the survival instinct that makes us say: “Maybe, tomorrow.” – it’s just too much and all we long for is the peace we know and remember being our true selves. And then it happens: an enormous calm enters one’s body and mind and without further ado one commits the act. No thoughts whatsoever, just an automatic response in an almost dream-like state.
I’m not going to add how the decision then happens for I don’t want to put ideas in anyone’s mind. I stop here.

Blessings to you all and to the ones you have lost.

 

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Compulsive Positive Thinking (CPT) The New Creed

WOH…Don’t you throw your negative energy at me!

l’m neither a psychologist nor a psychiatric (who must be immune to it or else are not superficial and selfish arseholes).

l’ll only talk bullshit as, you see, l’ve been brain-washed by Compulsive Positive Thinking (CPT), which–by the way– goes a long way to keep lay people in their places to the benefit of those in power.

In fact, in this Fear-Based Society, be scared, be very scared of the smallest negative thought for its consequences will be but certain catastrophe.

I can vouch for this by the multitude of people who are living horrible lives thanks to my negative opinions of them. If only…

Don’t get me wrong, I’m all for mindfulness but all within limits.

Imagine, if you will, someone like Mother Theresa telling the leprechauns she dedicated her life work to, to stop whining; to stop suffering; that their negative thinking had caused their illnesses.different peopleYeah, maybe, perhaps…who knows for sure.

Do you?

But the real question is: Where is your heart? your compassion? your empathy?

Countless other examples could be made which would mean nothing unless one was walking in the other person’s shoes in this dualist world we ALL live in.

In awe of Italians ~ not really.

I am always very impressed with how highly some people seem to value themselves; I really am.

The other day I went to the London Pirelli’s headquarter to meet up with a successful business man I’ve known–literally–all my life, just to say hello as we were both in town and this is what one does…

I wasn’t impressed with the premises, by the way, and the receptionist–although lovely–looked like Morticia Addams while the guy at the door was simply scruffy.

Surely Italians are aware of their already iffy reputation and would pay more attention to first impressions? Apparently no.

Most likely–still living on Roman-times’ credit–they are oblivious to it.

Anyway, this gentleman tells me that he’s thinking of taking his sailing boat to the Caribbean where he can make lots of money just by chartering people around the islands for two months a year. ALL this guy needs is a woman who’s willing to cook and clean for the guests and, of course, look after him too.

Such ‘lucky’ woman will not be making any money as she will benefit enough from the amazing lifestyle as it is! In the meanwhile, this guy is planning to make around 90,000 pounds PER WEEK out of the enterprise and other people’s work, while getting laid.

I’m in awe ~ not.